What Amazon says
They say the pain of childbirth is made more bearable by the fact it is ‘pain with a purpose’. Sometimes the pain that mother’s experience later is equally, if not more, painful. Through her poems Nikki gives purpose to that pain and hopes that mothers who have grieved in any way or struggled with their relationships, will relate to her words.
Making sense of pain is a complex and personal journey. In this collection of poems, Nikki bears her soul and reveals that the deeper the grief, the deeper the love. Although it’s easy to feel disempowered and lost within pain, she demonstrates how, by stepping into it, we can give ourselves permission to heal.
My review
I reviewed this book in my capacity as a member of Rosie’s Book Review Team. If you would like your book reviewed, you can contact Rosie Amber here: http://rosieamber.wordpress.com/.
This collection of poems has an undertone of deep sadness and each poem revolves around loss and the erosion of parent and child relationships. I had a close relationship with my parents when I was growing up, especially my mother who was an open minded person and easy to relate too at that time. I was able to confide in my mother without fear of judgement or rejection. My relationship with my dad was a little more ‘pitted’ as I was ‘a daughter’ but it was still a good and solid relationship which I could depend on.
The poems in this book describe breakdowns in parental relationships which I found tragic. Although I don’t have personal experience with this, and I hope I never will have, I can relate to it through friends, both when I was a youngster, and now as a mother.
The emotions of the poet in A Mother’s Lament are strong and vibrant, a bit like screams of frustration on a page.
My favourite poem in the collection is Mirage, as follows:
“I see you through fog misted glass
three shadows blurred around the edges
Sun catches the crystal
blinding my vision,
highlighting the grimy smears.
I strain to keep you in focus
but you are fading.
I wipe the dirt,
my hands heavy with shame,
but you still don’t appear;
my mind was playing tricks.
Was it a mirage?
The glass remains cloudy.
I step outside
to the lonely space where you once stood,
and discover:
the glass was dirty on the outside.”
For me, this poem embodied the essence of this collection. The sadness, guilt, desperate wish for reconciliation, and also the disappointment and frustration at the mother’s lack of success in bridging the gap.
An excellent collection of heart breaking and vivid poems.
The one you quoted was, as you said, very touching and sad.
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Thanks, Danny, it was. Heartbreaking for a mother (and a father too).
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It does sound like a very sad book, written through pain. I’m pleased you have never experienced a breakdown in parent-child relationships and hope you never do.
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Thanks, Norah. I hope I don’t ever have this sort of experience. It would effect me very badly as I am ultra sensitive.
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I’m sure you won’t, Robbie. You have a wonderful relationship with your boys.
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From the book cover to your review, this volume seems like “heart-tugger.” I believe all can relate to mixed feelings in a parent-child relationship, if not to the loss. Thank you, Robbie!
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Hi Marian, the cover is beautiful, isn’t it? Yes, we all have ups and downs with our children. I haven’t had a relationship breakdown either with my own parents or with my children, for which I am very grateful.
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Thank you for introducing me to Nikki. Her collection sounds compelling, and the featured poem–so sad. My heart goes out to her, and all who experience the same.😔
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HI Gwen, I know, it is so sad to read these sorts of poems. These were all very compelling.
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My experience with my parents was similar to yours, Robbie. Having lost my father a few years back, there are many things I wonder about. I’ve read several great reviews of this book, and I love the poem you share. Thanks for the recommendation and congratulations to the author.
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Thank you, Olga. This is a powerful short collection.
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Thank you for introducing me to Nikki’s poetry, or should I say her very personal story. I know it will help others in similar situations, not feel so alone.
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Thank you Robbie.
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My pleasure, Rosie, a lovely collection.
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This book sounds heartbreaking, Robbie. Thanks so much for sharing a sample of the poetry and your thoughts as a whole. Congrats to Nikki for the powerful work.
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This is a powerful collection, Diana. I am glad I read it.
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Thanks for sharing, Michael.
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A very interesting cover and the collection itself very stirring. Thanks for sharing the news, Robbie! I will make a note for myself, to have a closer look on it. Best wishes, Michael
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Hi Michael, this is a powerful little book. The cover is very eye catching.
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Family relationships are the most intense ones we have I think. It is always sad when they break down. (K)
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Yes, I just can’t imagine a permanent breakdown in a relationship with a family member. I get into a terrible state if I fall out with anyone.
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Me too.
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Thank you for the introduction, Robbie. I’m sure Nikki’s poetry will comfort those who’ve experienced the heartbreak of broken relationships within the family. No one knows the pain unless you’ve experienced it within your own family.
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Hi Jill, I have not had any experiences like Nikki described in these poems. For that I am very grateful.
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Thanks for your mindful insights about this book, Robbie. Congrats to Nikki. Hugs to you both.
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HI Teagan, thank you, this is a very poignant and insightful collection.
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Thank you 🙏
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I appreciate her honesty in showing family relationships far from ideal.
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Hi Elizabeth, these poems were very insightful for me. I get on very well with my parents (most of the time) and my relationships with my sons have been good to date too so this is new territory for me.
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Too well trod for me, sadly. Thankfully my generation with daughter and grandchildren is healthy.
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Good luck to Nikki with her collection. Shared on Twitter, Robbie.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Thank you, Pete.
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Thank you Robbie for introducing us to Nikki, her poetry sounds poignant. Wishing her all the best with her book.
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Thank you, Balroop. I have not read poems like this before. Very troubling and sad.
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The poem you chose is a sad reflection of how the breakdown of parental relationships affect both Parents and Children…
As you may remember I had a volatile relationship with my own Mother, which led to over 10 years of her not speaking, despite repeated attempts from my end to heal the rift… In the end I was only continually wounding myself… Its heart-breaking and relate.. And writing out in poetry is also a way to heal those inner wounds…
Excellent Choice on book Robbie , Great Review…. ❤
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HI Sue, I do recall you had a difficult relationship with your mother. Such a sad thing when communication between a mother and child breaks down. My mom can drive me made, especially lately when she does things she shouldn’t and hurts herself, but we do get on very well. Fortunately, my relationships with my boys is also good to date.
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That is the best kind of relationship, And I too have two wonderful children who have turned out wonderful adults… 🙂
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That is so satisfying, Sue. A real and worthwhile life accomplishment.
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Thank you Robbie ❤
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That poem is heartbreaking. I don’t think I’d have it in me to read the collection without a lot of tissues nearby.
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Hi Teri, you have good solid with your sons so you would experience this form a third party perspective which is ever so much better.
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This collection does sound heartwrenching. I think a lot of people would relate to it.
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HI Liz, I suppose all parents go through ups and downs with their relationships with their children. This is more extreme that what I’ve experienced with my parents or my own children to date.
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It’s not easy to come out on the other side of the downs, but love gets us through, even if it ends up being tough love.
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That poem is very profound.
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It is, very sad and heart wrenching.
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This sounds very heart-wrenching, Robbie
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Hi Toni, it is. Relationships of any kind that go wrong are always sad and traumatic. The closer the relationship the worse it is.
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A wonderful review for what sounds like a powerful book. Congratulations to the author. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Robbie. Hugs 💕🙂
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Hi Harmony, this is a very powerful little book. Thanks for visiting.
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Thank you for sharing this book, Robbie. I can see how the erosion of parent and child relationship would be debilitating. How wonderful to put herself out there, for others to grow from.
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Hi Jacqui, I think such erosion of a parent / child relationship would be bitterly disappointing. I can see how it could happen though. Kids can become very pig headed and selfish in their teens and young adulthood.
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Hi Robbie, thanks for the introduction to Nikki and for sharing that heartbreaking yet poignant poem. I am also grateful I had good relationships with my parents. As a result, I miss them both (today marks 11 years since my mom died and almost 6 years for my dad). And fortunately, my husband and I have a close relationship with our children. But relationships aren’t always joyful, and I’m sure Nikki’s writing will help those who can relate to her experiences. I’ll need some tissue nearby because the topic itself breaks my heart, but I do want to read her book. And I wish her all the best…❤️
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Hi Lauren I am also fairly close to my parents and they live on our property, in their own cottage. Sometimes they drive me a little nuts, but I can’t imagine life without them.
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That sounds so wonderful, being all together on the same property. It’s very surreal, to say the least, when they are both gone. Enjoy your time. Hugs.
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A wonderful review Robbie and as a mother we can feel her pain too. A poignant poem too. I have a lovely family and have a great relationship with my children but life has certainly been difficult with certain people
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Hi Kamal, I also had a good relationship with my parents. On the whole my relationships with my sons is good. I had a few ups and downs with Michael as he tries to forge his own identity.
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Yes happens and especially with boys. Even my son is like that but this is part and parcel of life. Have a great Sunday Robbie ❤️
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It sounds heartbreaking! Excellent review, Robbie.
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Hi Christy this is a very intense little book.
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Robbie, a superb and insightful review. The favourite poem you shared is powerful and intense, full of sadness and despair. Like you, I have a very close relationship with my mother and always able to share everything -it is wonderful and enriching to be such good friends but I have seen the opposite and it is heartbreaking.
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HI Lauren, like you I always got on well with my parents. They live on the same property as my family in their own cottage and have been very involved in my children’s lives. Sometimes they can drive me a little mad when they don’t want to go to doctors and that sort of thing, but I can’t imagine life without them.
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Deeply moving, Robbie, and an excellent review.
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Thank you, Jennie. An extraordinary book of poems.
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You are welcome, Robbie.
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Oh for a mother’s love and share of Nikki’s book so crushing. Her poem shares the hardship of pain so well shared. I am in awe of her bravery and your kind hearted sharing of her work!!! Nice review Robbie! 💗
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HI Cindy, it is brave to share poems this compelling and heart felt. Thanks for visiting and commenting.
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It really is and I admire her so much! 💗
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I really like the honesty of this review. Thank you, Robbie!
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Hi Resa, this was a very memorable and poignant book.
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