The dream – A poem

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For many years I had a dream,

Every night, without fail, it came,

Relentless in its disruptive force,

Every night it was the same.

My son’s delicate state of health

The evil thought to blame.

 

I dreamed he stopped breathing,

His lips were blue and cold,

Even though he’s on every medication,

Of which I’ve heard or been told,

We even had the house damp coursed,

To keep out moisture and mould.

 

I wake up in quite a panic,

Sure something with him is amiss,

I check he is still breathing,

and give him a gentle kiss,

It is a long time before I relax,

and slip back into sleep’s sweet bliss.

by Robbie Cheadle

Robbie and Michael Cheadle are the co-authors of the Sir Chocolate Book series

 

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68 thoughts on “The dream – A poem

      1. Robbie, that is truly frightening to read – as was your poem.

        Not only does he have no lingering immunity after he is exposed, it would be impossible to do immunoglobulin tests for allergies or to see what is currently making him sick. NOR can his little body rally rapidly, since it has to identify each potential “invader” and figure out how to fight it anew.

        Thank goodness his doctor’s figured it out, but I imagine it is cold comfort to know what’s going on with Michael, rather than wondering why he is so susceptible to, well, everything! No wonder you had this dream repeatedly and had trouble getting back to sleep after you checked on him.

        You are an amazingly strong woman to live with this so positively and creatively, knowing that all you can really do is respond rapidly – and pray. I will add his continued health to my prayers as well.
        xx,
        mgh
        (Madelyn Griffith-Haynie – ADDandSoMuchMORE dot com)
        ADD Coach Training Field founder; ADD Coaching co-founder
        “It takes a village to educate a world!”

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    1. Thank you, Kim, for your kind words. He doesn’t have a normal immune system so his body doesn’t create memory cells for illnesses. Every time he is sick it is like the first time. He will be fine though as he is on a good treatment programme and under excellent doctors.

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      1. I am so glad you are not living in America, Robbie (and I wish I were not, actually).

        With our idiot president and the House Republicans decimating health care insurance, threatening to eliminate pre-existing conditions in their [hardly can be called a] “plan” to replace the ACA they are so hell-bent on getting rid of so that the rich get richer still (accent on HELL-bent), I believe that if we can’t somehow convince the Senate to stop them, it will become increasingly more difficult to find excellent doctors here as time goes on.

        Small comfort – but something for which to be extremely grateful.
        xx,
        mgh

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      2. I wonder why innocent children suffer such horrible illnesses. My younger son was born with neurocytosis, which causes him to have some learning problems and he is epileptic, is slightly spastic on the right side of his body and does not put on weight easily. He also has a weaker than normal immune system that causes him to get any stomach bug or flu than is going around at school. He cannot take any aspirin, codein, or allergy medication that contains anti-histamines as they cause seizures. He had to stop taking epileptic medication last year as it has caused him to develop Chrone’s disease. My older son has ADD and the specialists now think that he has Asperger’s Syndrome. So I know something of how you feel as a mom, and as I said I have two hearts that beat outside of me as well as my own.

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      3. Thank you, Madelyn, for both of your comments and for you support and concern. We do have very good doctors in South Africa and Michael has a whole team who look after him when he is sick. Our paed even offered to donate her own blood for Michael. He is such a sweet boy, everybody loves him. I am sure that things will settle and get better in the US over time. The Trump regime is still new.

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      4. Oh Kim, I am so sorry to hear about both your children. Mike is in a remedial school as he has a processing disorder. My older son, Greg, has had 18 operations and suffers from post traumatic stress syndrome. One thing I have learned during my many stays in the hospital with one or the other of my boys, is that our problems are not that bad, they are treatable and we can control their disorders most of the time with proper treatment and medication. I feel quite blessed as I have seen some terribly sad cases in the hospital.

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      1. He is wonderful thank you! It is TS. Which is very manageable just makes life different 🙂 Which is okay, because he is different in all of the best ways and very comfortable in his skin.

        But before they understood what the uncontrollable movements were, they were looking at some bad possibilities. Was terrifying!

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  1. Robbie so sorry to hear your Son is not well.. and you have these anxieties my friend .Does he suffer with Asthma? That was a heartfelt poem and any mother I know would be anxious if he suffered breathing problems.. ❤

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    1. Thank you, Sue. Michael has a compromised immune system and his body does not create memory cells when he is sick. He also suffers from brittle asthma which means it isn’t well controlled on high dosages of medications and he has chronic sinus. He is such a lovely child, I feel sad for his sickness and poor health. He has a good treatment programme and a great group of doctors.

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  2. This is such a tender poem Robbie and others have said your motherly love and fear (you wouldn’t be a mum if you didn’t worry about your kids) shines through. I always admire your Fondant work. Each and every piece is brilliant but this one was exceptional because it was so unexpected, yet appropriate. A lovely coherent piece of work from start to finish

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  3. The dream, your child is always on your mind, in your thoughts and soul. My baby sister had something like that and had to get a shot of Gammaglobulin every month until she was about 6 or 7, after that she was fine. I wish and pray all will be fine. With a mom like you, I am sure he will be.
    Beautiful poem. Hugs.

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